thank God for peace.. n rest.. during this period of rushing assignment.. i cld nv feel such ease if i dun have God in my life!

juz returned from tanjung balai yesterday..taught sunday sch for the 1st time.. felt scared at first.. worried abt response from the children.. furthermore gotta repeat the teaching twice.. but actually it turned out to be something gd cuz at least i got chance to add in the things tt i forgot to say..
it was a great experience.. thank God for gd weather n safety.. aicen thinks frenky likes mi muahaha.. i kinda hope so too ;)

thank God for bringing mi thru! had lotsa problems but they r solved now..
for animation i had to re-shoot all my assignments.. for CP i forgot to photocopy the paper and buy mounting board.. for DF i went to print today but the effect i wanted did not turn out.. had to buy extra sticker paper..then my file was not readable in the Mac comp.. rushed back to sch but kenna scolding.. now i managed to borrow the CP paper from yc.. n God let sebastian to msg mi then teach mi how to get the effect tt i wan! yeah! i dun have my cd-rw with mi... but i rem tt my sis has thumbdrive! hope i can borrow from her..

today's service was POWER. i'm glad i went, instead of staying at home to rush my assignment.. or slp longer... i believe everything happens for a reason.. i feel like evangelising to my frenz... but do i have enuf faith? i believe now, tt it is out of passion for the unreached tt i've decided to go out to the mission field.. thank God for blessings! i am ready to bless others with tt!

i've been thinking... if i weren't Christian i'd probably be anti-Christ due to my stubborn character.. i was insistent to prove the magnetic therapy thingy wrong..

ok now this entry is abt my Christian walk..
i was quite enthusiastic abt sharing God's word with my friends when i was young.. i rem forcing my best friend read the bible 'or else i dun friend u!'... haha..
then upper pri i became pai kia.. always wan to do naughty things... bully pple.. until sec sch i became gd ger.. almost no life.. my Christian walk was suffering until i met my 1st bf.. i felt tt i need to be a gd example so tt he wld c y itz gd to follow Christ.. i failed to convert him... n tt realli brought my morale damn low..
now after mission trips, i began to find passion in mission work.. or rather.. i can't differentiate whether i do it out of love for God, or out of selfish desire to go Tj Balai to (enjoy holiday/eat gd food/c gd looking guys).... anyway i'm taking Bahasa Indonesia lessons now to be able to communicate with the pple in Balai.. my recent quiet time was gd at first.. but standard dropping.. i've been online till veri late at nite.. until i'd be too tired to concentrate..
i dun realli pray a lot also.. i c Christian couples around mi.. they start out by praying for one another... can i find a guy to pray for too?

ok this is the 1st entry.. juz wanna briefly describe my Christian life..
i'm the sensitive type of person.. n i feel tt pple dun like mi.. even in church.. i was in church since i was born.. n i always felt left out.. i din like my early yrs in church.. sometimes i felt tt i cld have juz stayed home to watch cartoons on early sunday mornings.. i started to feel upset abt having to eat lunch with parents n not be able to go out with other church members every sunday.. veri horrible social life..
then i moved on to Feetwashers.. i was the onli ger in the grp n i simply dunno how to encourage other gers to join mi.. the guys onli talk abt soccer... etc.. Aunty Lily also chat with them abt soccer n leaves mi out.. juz felt tt she din like mi as well..
moved on to Youth service as soon as i reached the age.. i wanted to join M'kaddesh instead of El Shaddai but seems like Andy doesn't allow tt.. 'psycho-ed' to like El Shaddai after one bbq outing.. liked the fellowship alot but now i'm kinda suffering.. i can hardly confide in the pple in my cell grp.. i'm glad Elohim was born.. i was kinda close to the pple there.. n seems like i can clique with everyone except El Shaddai pple.. but i'm still there becuz i'm proud to be in a young n noisy cell grp.. o.0?
joined the Psalmist ministry... happening ministry.. feel proud to be in there too.. but i felt i was being rostered for duty for 5 times in 2 mths n i dun realli like tt arrangement.. but i like the outings n fellowship.. in Psalmist i can clique with Landy.. a little bit with the girls.. but i feel tt Shirley dun like mi.. can tell she prefers Liz.. between my sis n i, i think she'd prefer my sis. so....
Shiqi is nice, but she brings mi around to mingle with my cell grp members as if i were realli an outcast... i'm juz a bit sensitive abt tt.. then when Elohim leaves i suddenly feel alone..
in my cell grp i talk most to Jac... but there were some things i din tell her too.. basically this is my social life in church..