ok this is the 1st entry.. juz wanna briefly describe my Christian life..
i'm the sensitive type of person.. n i feel tt pple dun like mi.. even in church.. i was in church since i was born.. n i always felt left out.. i din like my early yrs in church.. sometimes i felt tt i cld have juz stayed home to watch cartoons on early sunday mornings.. i started to feel upset abt having to eat lunch with parents n not be able to go out with other church members every sunday.. veri horrible social life..
then i moved on to Feetwashers.. i was the onli ger in the grp n i simply dunno how to encourage other gers to join mi.. the guys onli talk abt soccer... etc.. Aunty Lily also chat with them abt soccer n leaves mi out.. juz felt tt she din like mi as well..
moved on to Youth service as soon as i reached the age.. i wanted to join M'kaddesh instead of El Shaddai but seems like Andy doesn't allow tt.. 'psycho-ed' to like El Shaddai after one bbq outing.. liked the fellowship alot but now i'm kinda suffering.. i can hardly confide in the pple in my cell grp.. i'm glad Elohim was born.. i was kinda close to the pple there.. n seems like i can clique with everyone except El Shaddai pple.. but i'm still there becuz i'm proud to be in a young n noisy cell grp.. o.0?
joined the Psalmist ministry... happening ministry.. feel proud to be in there too.. but i felt i was being rostered for duty for 5 times in 2 mths n i dun realli like tt arrangement.. but i like the outings n fellowship.. in Psalmist i can clique with Landy.. a little bit with the girls.. but i feel tt Shirley dun like mi.. can tell she prefers Liz.. between my sis n i, i think she'd prefer my sis. so....
Shiqi is nice, but she brings mi around to mingle with my cell grp members as if i were realli an outcast... i'm juz a bit sensitive abt tt.. then when Elohim leaves i suddenly feel alone..
in my cell grp i talk most to Jac... but there were some things i din tell her too.. basically this is my social life in church..