i wanna explain y i cried today...

wasn't exactly a bad day.. onli turned bad juz b4 prayer meeting..

had lessons frm 8-3pm.. stayed back to do dsnv assignment.. wanted to finish it then go home can do other stuff.. but i was slow la. we continued doing our work in the comp lab where a yr 3 class was going on.. the lecturer started to talk abt burgers...cheese... then i felt tempted to go buy cheeseburger.. went to mac with wan. bought cakes to celebrate esme's bday.. continued doing work for a while more then i rushed to take train to church.

stopped at marsiling to take cab.. was like 5min b4 6.30pm.. by the time i got to clementi, the cab fare was like $13++ n i had no more money to continue taking to church.. so i alighted in clementi.. walked to 166 bus stop to take bus. became veri late.. wad was worse is, the time i took to get frm marsiling to clementi is like shorter if i had continued to take the train.. kinda mad with the traffic already..

n then i started to have negative thots again... felt veri bitter...
bitter with jealousy, bitter with anger, bitter with low self esteem, bitter with my ugliness.. was praying for God to take those feelings away..n restore joy unto me.. then we sang this song,

O Lord, Your tenderness
Melting all my bitterness
O Lord, I receive Your love
Oh Lord, Your loveliness
Changing all my ugliness
O Lord, I receive Your Love.....

...and i cried...

realli thank God for this prayer meeting.. on my way home my dad was kinda speeding.. fun sia.. saw the moon big, bright orange-yellow... veri nice... felt happy again..

mood swing sia..