first of all i gotta apologise for not being able to help those in need regarding web design.. esp wanling, who came to my hse 2 days in a row to bia assignment.. i cldn't work anywhere else apart frm my own comp, n i felt kinda weird juz sitting beside her staring at her try to figure out wad width to put for spacer gif. so i went to slp most of the time.. she wld wake mi up when she needs help.. but i think in 3 days i slept not more than 10hrs total..

i myself haven completed my assignment, but i felt thankful, n i have the peace of God in my heart.. esp today.. i did my quiet time last nite.. (i missed the previous nite one) n i prayed during my journey to sch, tt God wld bless me, that my comp will not break down, cuz i use the comp onli as a tool to do my work. to back tt up, i shall not go online for the next few days unless i have to do work! (anyway i'm left with less than 100MB of internet usage already!)

right now i feel kinda joyful.. i din eat much either, but i had food provided when i felt hungry, but a little wld satisfy me already.. perhaps this is an effect of stress n lack of slp ba.. not v tired ba.. God will sustain mi n give me strength!

Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. Luke 11:9-10

Oleh karena itu Aku berkata kepadamu: Mintalah, maka akan diberikan kepadamu; carilah, maka kamu akan mendapat; ketoklah, maka pintu akan dibukakan bagimu. Karena setiap orang yang meminta, menerima dan setiap orang yang mencari, mendapat dan setiap orang yang mengetok, baginya pintu dibukakan. Lukas 11:9-10

i wanna explain y i cried today...

wasn't exactly a bad day.. onli turned bad juz b4 prayer meeting..

had lessons frm 8-3pm.. stayed back to do dsnv assignment.. wanted to finish it then go home can do other stuff.. but i was slow la. we continued doing our work in the comp lab where a yr 3 class was going on.. the lecturer started to talk abt burgers...cheese... then i felt tempted to go buy cheeseburger.. went to mac with wan. bought cakes to celebrate esme's bday.. continued doing work for a while more then i rushed to take train to church.

stopped at marsiling to take cab.. was like 5min b4 6.30pm.. by the time i got to clementi, the cab fare was like $13++ n i had no more money to continue taking to church.. so i alighted in clementi.. walked to 166 bus stop to take bus. became veri late.. wad was worse is, the time i took to get frm marsiling to clementi is like shorter if i had continued to take the train.. kinda mad with the traffic already..

n then i started to have negative thots again... felt veri bitter...
bitter with jealousy, bitter with anger, bitter with low self esteem, bitter with my ugliness.. was praying for God to take those feelings away..n restore joy unto me.. then we sang this song,

O Lord, Your tenderness
Melting all my bitterness
O Lord, I receive Your love
Oh Lord, Your loveliness
Changing all my ugliness
O Lord, I receive Your Love.....

...and i cried...

realli thank God for this prayer meeting.. on my way home my dad was kinda speeding.. fun sia.. saw the moon big, bright orange-yellow... veri nice... felt happy again..

mood swing sia..

hmm wanna update abt sunday's concert..

realli felt encouraged to c all performers praying in our spare/waiting time instead of chatting or playing.. but i still felt the spiritual warfare going on.. felt v restless n sometimes reluctant to pray..

none of the pple i invited turned up.. a bit disappointed with tt.. but there's another concert next sat!! hope to jio them down~!

after concert went to IKEA restaurant with m'kkadesh pple.. wilson drove.. budden cldn't find seats so we went to Anchorpoint foodcourt.. had thai style beef noodles.. then wilson drove us home.. yeah! thank God! reached home at 10+pm..