i feel tt i need to do a reflection after my trip this time..
i felt like i dun wanna spend money here in singapore on material stuff.. instead i shld use the money to buy things for the pple in tj balai to bless them.. or else drop in more money in their offering bag..
thot of sponsoring some of the children to make their own passports n come to singapore, but then i feel tt it doesn't exactly help in building their faith in God.. feel tt singapore has bad modern influences on children like them.
their faith in God is truer than ours, i feel.. cuz they dun do much work n have to depend on God to provide for them.. whereas we have too much work to do, been too busy for God, think tt we can rely on ourselves for survival..
they can sing the same worship song over n over again, n tt is worship unto God for them. for us, we get sick of old songs n we constantly wan to listen n sing new songs.. this seems to become a song dedication thingy.. but maybe if we r right with God, then itz ok, we can still have the heart of worship whether we sing new songs all the time..
the children in tj balai dun have alkitab.. so itz hard to tell them to read the bible everyday.. tt's one thing i wanna pray for them abt. whether they pray everyday or not, i also dunno.. but anyway i felt realli encourage to c wiky pray a long prayer before he had his meal (even tho the pastor said grace already).. i'm guilty of rushing grace so tt i can have my meal faster, sometimes without even meaning it when i say, "thank God for the food. Amen."
anyway the month of fasting has come... i need to fast n pray more..

dunno wad this is called. 

one sign tt i'm spiritually dry is i haven been updating this blog for some time..
been too busy with sch stuff to spend enuf quality time with God.. been depressed for quite a while.. i guess itz pms ba, cuz today my period came n i seem to cheer up more..
went to tanjung balai for a weekend mission trip cum get together with the frenz i made there.. itz always a gd trip everytime.. did new stuff, tried new food...
went on sat morning..i was desperate to look for ATM to withdraw money for the ticket n to exchange currency. then normal routine, went thru customs, got onto ferry (this time v minimal waiting).. i was so happy tt audrey came cuz she wanted to come along the last time but cldn't make it.. there were ian, weiyang, rongfa, anna, elaine, sarah, persis, n kelsey who came at night. slept on the ride there. wasn't exactly comfortable but there was nothing much to do except to slp.
reached.. n ian saw ah yang.. changed money there. then we saw pastor n frenky too. took the oplik to hotel rasa sayang, the same one i stayed in the last time i came. bought pisang goreng opp our hotel. tempe v nice! this time our room not as nice as the last time. rested for 15min then went down..
took the van n visited the locals..i dun realli like getting on the van n alighting too often.. i'd rather take it for long trips..our church moved.. n we went to the new one.. after tt went to visit the girls frm the Youth congregation.. had lunch.. wasn't delicious but i finished my food.. took the van straight to the outing venue.. dunno wad's the place called, tho.
played games.. worship.. persis shared word n then we went to take the dunno wad's it called.. itz in the shape of a duck, itz sorta a canoe but u peddle it with ur legs.... haha ya anyways itz 10000Rp per half an hour.. which is around $2.. i treated the girls on my "boat".. we played bumper "boats"..kinda fun.. but too bad i din take photo of us inside the boat.. i took out my pouch with my camera cuz i was afraid i'd fall into the water..
after tt had dinner at padi mas.. had maggi mee goreng.. weiyang audrey pastor ahqing n i sat together.. suaned each other..haha.. went to the supermarket to buy stuff.. did something bad.. we bought tiger beer n drank it right in front of the pastor n a few of our own pple.. i thot we were gonna drink it in the hotel while watching soccer so i bought it lor.. but nvm the youths did nt c tt so we din stumble them..
waited a long time for the van to pick us up to go back to hotel.. then went back, kelsey arrived n bought murtabak for mi to celebrate my birthday.. i was v happy tt they bothered.. debriefed with pastor then bathed. 10.30pm we went to persis' room to debrief n do evaluation. we had food sharing session at the same time.. ahyang was present while we practise our song item with sign language. i was stoning already..
practised telling my story to persis after tt... it was quite terrible for me cuz i felt not totally prepared for the word session for sunday sch. went back to room 314 to slp.. woke up at around 2+am to watch soccer.. i heard my alarm clock ring ma.. then called up the other pple to watch with us.. in the end elaine n anna slept.. v boring match.. v close goals but haiz.. i went to slp at 4am.. woke up around 8.30 to packup n check out n breakfast.
then we took the van to aicen's hse for 1st sunday sch. fewer children than the last time we came. wasn't v encouraging.. kelsey did games n elaine did word n arts n craft..we made bookmarks.
went over to the new church for 2nd sunday sch.. showed frenky n wiky photos i took the last time with the computer.. hehe.. had worship n then games.. we played v long.. then itz my turn to share word. i told the story of daniel in the lion's den.. n the moral of the story is pray n trust in God.. setiap hari berdoa. my story-telling technique sucks........ i need to improve on tt.. had noodles cooked by rongfa b4 the church service started.. we performed our song item after the preaching.. fell aslp when pastor prayed a long prayer.. =X hang around until 5pm then we took the oplik to the ferry terminal.. wiky n ahyang followed us.. had Metro chicken...boarded the ferry quite late n we cldn't sit together. i sat with ian n anna. slept a while.. had dinner in harbourfront food court.. persis bought me a ring (my 2nd one frm her already haha).. then took NEL back home. reached at 10.30pm.

i need motivation!! i feel so challenged n stretched... 2004 is a stretching yr for mi!

currently i'm busy with OGL planning.. n i still attend kelas bahasa.. very tired after today... 2 ladies joined the class today, n they're quite gd in speaking the language, while i'm still struggling... felt quite stressed.. haizzzz....

then met zane n jane outside PS after tt.. zane asked mi to consider joining the Indonesian Ministry in church once in a while... i felt tt itz realli useful to learn speaking the language, but i dunno whether i'm up to it or not...

gone thru a leadership camp, experienced a lot... need to apply wad i've learnt...