Cailing in KKH...

Yup, it's been a long time since i've updated.

21 June - Cailing has come to Singapore for an operation on the tumour at her left side of the face and the operation was SUCCESSFUL!

22 June - I went to visit Cailing with Persis and Joseph at KKH children ward 55 bed 11. bought her a funky massager from Action City. Praise Fellowship pple were there too, they got her a cute music box with 2 dancing figurines. After they left, a lady distantly related to Cailing talked to us about her granddaughter, asking us to befriend her and bring her back from bad company. As she talked she teared. She must be quite troubled to have to support her, as well as other family members. Her son, the father of that granddaughter, had a new family in Tj Balai. Her daughter-in-law passed away. So Vivian only has her grandmother. I was quite troubled by her sharing, wondering how i could help this strayed teenager who dropped out of sch. i was quite scared because i dun want to get into trouble with gangsters.

25 June - I started to sms vivian because after speaking to Gail about her i got more confidence to deal with her. since Cailing was staying at her place, i could use the excuse of visiting Cailing, to look her up too. anyway, her response was quite friendly, but doesn't answer my questions directly. And when i got off work, she asked whether i could buy her a prepaid card. Dunno y but i quickly jumped to the idea that she needs a prepaid phone top-up card (after that i realise she didn't specify that) Anyway i was quite eager to help her buy, in hope that she will like me more as a friend. Quite silly actually. actually i think she's quite smart, because she didn't ask me to "help her buy" the prepaid card, but to "buy (it for) her". Cos later that night she smsed me, whether i will help her next time she has a cash prob. i started to find it difficult to befriend her. if i weren't asked by her grandmother to help her, i would ignore her straightaway. but i replied that i can treat her meals, but not give her money to spend.

26 June - Vivian asked me to lend her money to take cab home because she's not feeling well. again very smart, because i cannot advise her to take bus home instead since she's not feeling well.

27 June - i only replied tt msg the next morning, telling her to ask her grandmother for the money, not me. Again she did not answer my question to the point and asked me to help her. i called up her grandmother, who asked me to lend her "only $10". i felt a bit... cheated... anyway i rejected her because i was at work. and we stopped communication from then. money is not the issue, but it's the relationship. i know nuts about her and i've spent money on her already. friends shldn't be like tt. it's not helping her to lend her money as and when she needs. she was starting to think of me as a financial provider.

anyway those few days i felt emotionally tormented. people who are poor are not necessary pitiful, when they start to become bad and turn to stealing, robbing, kidnapping, etc etc crimes just because they lack. i cried every night for those few days. and then i decided that i don't want to help her anymore. sorry there's not much i can do.